first day of school tomorrow
I want to give myself a pep talk, list down positive goals I want to achieve for the year. I wish I am inspired and motivated to do that but right now, I just want to get by. I want to get through high school alive. High school has been more neurotic and complicated than I thought. This year, I just want to keep everything simple. I want to focus on my studies, do well, get good grades. Maybe meet a few people but not get too attached. The lighter the emotional baggage, the simpler everything will be. I may feel alone in the crowded hallways but I’m not too scared, well not at the moment. This year will be about being more self-sufficient. I want to be comfortable with doing things on my own. I’ve been so reliant with other people that I forgot that I am mine before I am anyone else’s. I want to feel secured with myself so whenever people leave, I won’t crash and burn. This year, I’m not dreaming too big. Baby steps. I just want to be better.